dont cry coz its over..smile coz it happens...

finally i made up my mind and i wont change it...its very tough and i thing one of my toughest decision..made it coz i can stand the suffering anymore...thanks to my fren and people dat love me coz they have been supporting me through the obstacle...im trying to moving on with new life and trying to gain strength to get back and stand in this cold wide world....sum1 had showed me dat giving up is not in the option of moving on...but praying and keep on believing will make our life more easy and made us strong....i really dont noe what to say when i came to the decision because it seems imposible to me because i have give all my heart out...i hpe there will be some happiness left for me..i wont stop searching and i wont stop believing...i pray to god everynight for the happiness because i noe God will save some for me...for all dat had happen, i will learn from it and make myself more aware with the people that i chose to trust...whatever happens next, i will face it with an open heart and i promise i will be strong....lastly, i would like to wish all the happiness in the world for the people dat i love...without them i may not be dis strong...thanks...and thank God for all the blessing....

hush...

'catch a falling star and put it in your pockets, save it for a rainy day..' there are n star tonight...cant make a wish...i miss my sayang...he's with God now...i wish you r here...u always b strong for me...still cant find someone else like you...they all are bullshit...hate them...why it is so hard to move on??

final....

wow..cant believe dat im entering my second year of campus life....pursuing my surveyor dats my goal yahh...final examination is coming really soon..not saying dat im ready...hehehe..hoping for the best...would like to thanks all my frens n lecturer for their help and everything...

missing my family so much...its hard being far from them...if it what would it takes for my dream to come true then,let do it..chaiyok2...!!!

moving on...

it seems like yesterday we know each other and now its hard to accept that fact we are walking our own way...i got to be strong...maybe it wasnt our destiny to be together.why should i hold onto you when all you do is letting go?yaa...feel so empty now..when you used to call me every morning just to say dat u love me...well now i have to find my own way without you..find the real me and hopefully to achieve the dream that i have been working hard for..God's will...lastly, i hope you found ur happiness and do appreciate it, coz we dont know is there any left for us when we lost it...describing how you love me yet you smile and leave...~

letting go...

my first post...letting go?of what?yesterday i think...yea...mostly we dont realize that we are letting go each day...the hardest part is letting go of someone or even something that are precious for you...no matter what you or how you prepare for it you still arent ready for it...but the best thing bout letting go is letting sumthing new coming..like rain...after it the sun will shine..and yet we able to smile again...smile, though its aching..smile, though you're heart is breaking...yeahh...smile :)